Leaving home

Ever since I got engaged back in November 08, I've realized that the hardest part about leaving home will be leaving family.  This is a picture of my grandma and if you can tell, even at 94, she is quite the social butterfly. 

Probably the main reason leaving home is difficult is that my grandma continues to remind me almost every day if not multiple times within a day of how sad she'll be when I leave.  It's inevitable that I'll hear her slowly making her way down the stairs, plop down on the couch wherever I am and then tell me that once I leave, she'll never get to see me.  "Once you leave there will be few chances to see you." over and over...

I try to explain to her that I'll be living close by. I'm not moving to Mexico goodness!  Anyways, having lived at home for 26 years so far, the transition will probably be tough on them, but I'm hoping my grams and I can chat on the phone periodically if not see each other face to face.  

TWO MONTHS!

Let's all say hooray because my crazy wild semester is OFFICIALLY over.  I'm running on four hours of sleep, but strangely I'm not tired (I guess I'll find out tomorrow). The real celebration is because yesterday was my birthday, yeah!, but also the TWO MONTH mark to the wedding. And now that school is OVER, I can actually think about the wedding a little=).

To add to that, Kevin and I will soon be able to spend more quality time (QT) together. His semester is almost over too. This year has been crazy but blessed as we've both been studying like mad dogs and our phone conversations aren't allowed to drift into the night.  Kevin has school in the morning, I have mine at night and finally in only a little, we'll be able to hang and enjoy each other's company alot more.  

Excited to get married, but also excited because at weddings everyone you never see yet love comes together.  I know Kev and my wedding will be quite a celebration and even though I'm not the frills and fancy type, I'm just excited.=) Here's a before picture of the bride and groom (Yes I'm wearing my Ape shall never kill ape shirt)... two months baby!...oh my goodness, is that possible??

Early morning thoughts

It's almost two months until the "big" day.  I know I'm only 25, to be 26, and what do I know about marriage, but I don't feel like I'm on cloud nine about being married. I have been reminded this week that it is the most challenging relationship that we can have on earth.  That's a bit crazy, uhhh yeah, but thank God because I love challenges and I love Kevin. =)  I believe we're going make a pretty crazy couple.

To prepare for this big step in my life, I really really think that I'm going to have to remember God's love and focus on his power, strength, and energy through the coming weeks.  Hopefully everyday I can have sweet quality time with God.  Darn it, weddings are stressful, but I hope especially in the weeks drawing up to the wedding that I'd be calm cool AND extra excited=) But really no stress in the frills..

I'm at peace though with getting MARRIEd mostly because I see that God has prepared me in many ways to be a good wife. I'm not going to be perfect because I can be bossy, strong willed and selfish, and I can stab with my words no joke, but I feel like I've had a lot of experience butting heads with people I love and have had much training in how to love others despite how they treat me.  Plus I have many great models to follow after.  Feel like God has put in me great perseverance to never quit, which I hear is important.  

Finishing up the semester in these last two weeks, just sent out invites, and have premarital counseling tomorrow. Oh yes, it'll get done!