Thursday, January 8, 2009

Winter Reading

So in effort to keep perspective on why I'm planning a wedding, my goal while I am on my winter break is to read marriage books.  I used to think of marriage books as something for old Christian women and men and honestly, I had no desire to touch them, but my aunt and uncle from Toronto gave me this marriage book and the font was right size and the book was new so I decided I'd start reading that one.

I've read up to page 50 so far it seems that this book is alot less about marriage than I thought.  It's more about how to follow God and little inserts about marriage are added in.  I used to think I shouldn't read a book about marriage until I actually get married, but now that I'm reading, I'm thinking that my goal to learn about marriage BEFORE marriage is actually a really good decision. Thinking back, I read a number of dating books even though I didn't have a boyfriend and never had had one before and I tend to think that doing so, helped me be more cautious and wise when it came time to date. So I'm hoping and I think it's true that if I read about marriage before it actually happens, I'll be much more prepared, a better wife (did I just say that?), and just more aware of what is ahead. 

What is ahead? Well, from what I've been reading and through my reflection, I'm thinking, just thinking and realizing that when people say marriage is hard, it really is very very very hard. Now, I feel like playing hockey in college was one of the toughest things for me emotionally and physically, and caring for my grandparents has been pretty tough as well, and training for a marathon wasn't that hard, but I'm starting to see that I'm going to be crying, yelling, fighting, hurting because marriage really will be that hard.  At the same time, I've been really comforted and excited because I'm seeing that marriage, if it is approached at from God's angle it can be REALLY REALY satisfying and can add so much to your life.  

So we'll see what happens after page 50, but I've shocked myself because I haven't read this faithfully in a while!

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